SYF is just tomorrow.

Hmmm, did not go to school today, went for check up. Its like an annual thing. And the worst part is, I'll have to go back again, next year, same day. Haha. So, after the checkup, went to tanjong pagar, some shopping centre, eat breakfast. All the way until 12plus. Reached home arnd 12.45. Slumped onto the sofa. Wa, damn tired. Went back to school for band at arnd 1.45. Had band practice. Some parts which i couldn't play, I'm still not satisfied with it. I have to practice. I have to. I've been telling myself that on the way home. Practiced for 2 hours since then. Time now is, 10.20. I hope I'm not disturbing the neighbours. I've tried playing into the closet alr. Worked out a little. But at this time practicing? A bit ridiculous. So I've decided to stop. But tomorrow, it will be an all different thing. I will not stop at all. Practice is all I need, and i will do it. I'm afraid I'll not be able to concentrate during lessons tomorrow, I'll be thinking too much about SYF. Though I shouldn't. FOCUS is all I need to do. I have to FOCUS on the goal I'm aiming toward, and get it. It is within reach. It is, I know. I have FAITH that WE, as a band can do it. Just one chance to show the jury, and we're done. I know we can, I hope so too. So I shouldn't be so nervous over tomorrow. That's it, OFF WE GO. =D

Dorothy, I know you believe that I can do it, so does everyone else. But I myself, simply don have the confidence. I'm sorry for today. But I couldn't play that part, I was frustrated, stressed up, and I feel that I'm pulling you guys down. I'm so afraid that because of me, the band will fall. I feel that I'm such a big burden to our section. And I can't stop thinking about it. Up till now, you've been telling me to say ''I CAN'' Its just a four letter word so why can't I say it? But to me, It seems like a 123456789 long word and a !@#$%^&*)(*&^%$#@! unreadable word. Its just so hard to say it. But tomorrow, I will display it. Now, I know I can.