outsiders.

everytime you feel left out, what's the one thing you would like to do most?
I've no idea at all. but things always go the way it is.
that's just how typical the world is.
well, I would say, that if that certain some one knows his/her friend is talking about him/her,
or at least they think they are, they prefer to keep it to themselves.
cuz they're afraid of losing the friend.
but it definitely sets them thinking.
thoughts start crowding up their mind.
of course, they could go all out and expose them, breaking friendships and all.
but no doubt, he/she'll be a loner, condemned by everyone else.
emo everyday, sitting by the corner reading some freaking effed up book.
and everyone starts staring at him/her, with such disgusted faces.
forgotten by the crowd, left alone.
maybe for the whole semester, or sec school life.
there's no telling.
well, this is just an analogy of course.
just wanting to let everyone know.
cuz it's been bothering me.

secrets will be secrets.

crap. I need someone to talk to, give me some valuable advice so I won't spend
so much time thinking stuff not worth thinking everyday!

same script, different cast! (:

i need someone to confide in!
sadly, no one really understands.

you complicate matters.

ah, back to school. screwed everything up.
today was somewhat an eye-opener for me.
haha, saw how people can make a mountain out of a molehill.

it's weird how a trivial matter, can get so damn big,
where everyone comes into the picture.
of course, I don't really have anything to say if it happens in this school.
appearances can be deceiving.
trusting the wrong person can get you where you never thought you would be.
but more often than not, being with the right friends always hinges on your decision.
Bye! (:

it's hard to differentiate such complicated things.
you make it hard.
but looking back and asking myself,
why am I thinking so much?
however, there's this feeling.
pulling me away.
and I get the temptation to follow it,
although telling myself not to.
it's hard. when will it go away?

obsessed with THAT book.

thought I'd just blog for the sake of it.
currently super obsessed over some book which is the sequel to the "love me, love me not."
this one's "sweet and vicious".
freaking nice. haha.
okayyy, so about today, won't go into details about school
cuz it's obvious. BORING.
instead, should be talking about after school.
went to the music room cuz mr li opened it.
practiced for awhile and headed for late lunch with mr li and 2 more.
ahwell, chatted here and there about stuff.
went home.
continued reading the book.
almost finishing, and once I'm done, I'm off to get the next sequel.
hahaha! bye(:

true colours.

great, I actually believed you when you said that and now I found out it was a lie.
I never thought of you to be such a person.
guess true colours do surface when I trust someone too much.
it hurt when I learnt about it, cuz for once, I thought it was real.
but whatever you said, were blatant lies.
maybe it once was true, but you're no different from the others.
to think I actually wanted to say sorry to you for being so rude.
but now, I think I was right in not saying it.

symphony no. 5!

driving me mad. can die in that piece. furthermore, I forgot to bring my
flute and piccolo... so I had to use the yamaha one. didn't play the piccolo.
the score for flute is freaking hard. piccolo much easier, but need more air.
haha. anyhow, have to bring my instrument tml to get mr li to teach me.
desperate to perfect this condemned piece! :)

it made me smile, but not anymore. times changed, I know. but I'm appalled by how people can change so fast to. is there anyone left for me to trust anymore?

okay. ahemahem.

HAPPY BELATED 14TH BIRTHDAY FILZAH!

okay I'm sorry it had to be another belated birthday wish.
but I wasn't blogging these few days...so, yeah.
okayyy, I'm trying to concentrate on my science homework,
but apparently, I can't.
cuz once I start using the computer, I'll forget about that book I was doing.
kayyy, bye! :D

the breakthrough is coming. I know it.

Service was BEYOND AWESOME! (:

I really enjoyed service today cuz there's this pastor and banker, Dr A.R. BERNARD who came and preached to us. And I really actually understood what he was saying. Didn't really want service to end so fast.

He was saying, coming to church is not only about a relationship with me and God. It's about having the responsibility to save others. And I was really inspired by that. Must do something about it.

Definitely looking forward to next service. (:

Bye(:

It's funny when my blog's so orange, and I say I love green.

Both is the love! (: Haha.
I'm like being pestered by JANINE, and KHAI, and talking to RYAN, and LUKMAN, and DOROTHY. I'm a busy person! Haha. Okay, it's a joke. So laugh. (: Thankyou thankyou.

I know this is short. Can't help it.

BYE! (:

I'm back. (:

I just found out that my tuition teacher CANCELLED the tuition in the VERY, let me emphasise on VERYYYY last minute. Argh screw it! It's always like that. ALWAYS! Just when I thought I couldn't go for the Drama Production cuz of my tuition, it's cancelled. -.-

I'm really fed-up now.

Anyhow, thanks JANINE for helping me with the blogskins and stuff. :)

GOODNIGHT!

I'm sorry.

For not being able to go for today's drama production.
For not turning up at PM.
For not going to service regularly.

These were the things I really want to do. But sadly, opportunities don't come twice.

E1 R1!!!! :)

Dilemma! :(

Oh right, I'm currently in one. Somehow I just feel like I've got loads of problems for me to settle. I feel so tired, frustrated whenever I think of it. But the thing is, that "problem", well, is not even a problem! Ohmygosh, I really don't know what I'm talking about.

Anyhow, I'm like currently in a dilemma on:
1. Drama production this friday(which, means I have to cancel my tuition and makeup another day)
2. Sunday service(which I normally go)

Well, I'm apparently only allowed to go for one you see. PRESUMPTION! Or so I thought. But it's sort of "most likely". Yep. But! You know, maybe it won't turn out the way I assume it would. Hopefully not. Haha.

Till then! :)

Oh before I forget.
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY SISTER!
Well It was actually supposed to be on the 5th of july. So it's a belated birthday wish.

Sister! Finally 16 and taking your Os! Haha, goodluck. Stop making mummy angry ah! :P Haha, kidding. Although you're SUPER irritating at times, but definitely have the endless supply of jokes! Haha. Anyhow, HAPPYBIRTHDAY! :)

Give me the definition. Say it.

Once again, I'm having problems with my desktop. I'm beginning to suspect if this thing is really, new. Hmmm, maybe it is.

Laughter that I heard today, filled with joy. I'm happy. At least the notice board was, done. I'm really satisfied with it. The meaning of "you reap what you sow" becomes even clearer for me. But I've been having this weird feeling recently, and it is, weird. About something. Can't guess. Anyhow, I'm really tired from all the drawings I did for the notice board today. And I'm sure many people are. Not many I would say, maybe just 2. Yep, 2.

Okay, I'm getting sleepy. Till then. :)